My Current Life 101

101st post. First time blogging about (junior) college life here. I sound super noob. Haven't been blogging. So recap:

I first visited RJ last year... some time in September. I liked it. So i'm here now. I visited now called RI(JC) again on 11th January this year. Also the hostel. I saw it and i was uber repulsed by it so I tried to stay away from it for as long as I could. 3 days later which was the 14th, open house day, that was the first night I stayed here. There were obviously better days. I felt like crying cause... I'm not sure. But i guess it's cause i'm not used to the place. I haven't settled down, physically and mentally, mostly emotionally. It was one of the worst days... But i haven't felt the real essence of staying in the hostel yet because I went back during each weekend and one whole week during CNY. And i was staying out late on most nights because I didn't want to be in this black hole, draining out all of what's left of my emotions. And why i had such a long CNY break? I skipped my electives. Won't be able to do that next year... Sigh. Singaporeans don't know how to live man. But anywho, this trip back here in the hostel is going to be the longest I've stayed so obviously the thought haunts me. Honestly, the real thing ain't that bad. But you think about it more than you do it so it's depressing. I was so depressed when I had to wave goodbye to my mum and my cousin at the bus station. I felt so miserable. There really is no place like home, as cliche as it is. There's no place that can feel as good as home. So I'm trying to learn to accept that I can't make this as good as my home back home, but i'm going to make sure I try turning off my OCD-ness because i realised that it really isn't THAT bad, it could have been much worse. But that doesn't mean it isn't that not bad either lah. XD

So, today was the first day of orientation, I had fun. We're just beginning to warm up to each other so yeah... I think it'll be fun. I'm thinking of all the CCAs i want to join like Student Council but i'm not doing anything about it. Right now, i'm just finding out more. Anywho, i just came back from OG dinner and we caught(?) a movie together. Bride Wars. Light movie. I wanna watch Benjamin Button but it ain't out yet. Changeling wasn't screening.

Well, i've was thinking about this on my way back to the hostel from J(unction)8, which is my new hangout spot cause it's only about a 15 minute walk away. So yeah, this is nice. A lil' freedom is nice. Not that i don't get that back home but i feel a tad bit more independent now. I miss my friends, i miss being in class together, making all the noise we possibly can, and i'm think about how i can't change the fact that i can't turn back the clock so, i'm going to make sure i get used to things here quick. 

 I miss you, Mum. Not that you'll see this but I really do, even though i don't tell you enough.

PS. Yes, it's pretty colourless, i'm feeling that for a bit right now.