Thursday, October 04, 2012

Funny how.

After 3 months of hard work on THE Benefit (in which I have yet to touch on), all I thought about was *refer to now irrelevant post below*.

Anyway, THE Benefit was amazing. It was so momentous for me, I don't quite know how to put it down in words. Or at least not in so little words.

There will be pictures and videos (later), so maybe we'll leave it to that.

Support from my family.

Support from my team.

Support from my friends.

Support from the public (read: superstars! :D)


But I must say, it was great working on it with such a brilliant support group. And it's kind of self-fueling/inspiring, seeing a mere idea come to life. I still see it all in my head, it repeating itself,

0. Thinking about it
1. Asking Yong Sze whether she'd be interested in organizing a benefit
2. RESEARCH via internet and face to face consultation
---ROAD BLOCK 1---
2. Our fundraising proposal to MERCY Malaysia
3. Scouting for venues
---ROAD BLOCK 2---
3. Firing out recruitment posters
3. Interviewing team candidates
3. Checking for legalities/taxation
---ROAD BLOCK 3---
3. Recruiting a team (of now 18)
3. Setting up virtual workstation 
3. First team meeting
4. Coming up with a theme
4. Coming up with a logo
4. Coming up with lab ideas
---ROAD BLOCK 4---
4. Finding out about stage management
4. Setting up financing/donating system
---ROAD BLOCK 5---
4. Getting funds
---ROAD BLOCK 6---
4. Setting up websites etc
4. Setting up brilliant QR ticketing system
5. Getting performers
6. Getting media involvement
7. Getting sound and lights
---ROAD BLOCK 7---
7. Getting logistic requirements
7. Getting more performers
---ROAD BLOCK 8---
7. Confirming line up
7. Getting more funds
---ROAD BLOCK 9---
7. Getting more people in the team
8. Getting videographers
---ROAD BLOCK 10---
9. Getting photographers
10. Getting volunteers
11. "Selling" passes
---ROAD BLOCK 11 12 13 14 15---
12. Physical marketing (which needs to be done earlier FMI)
13. Marketing premiums
14. Confirming programme schedule-
--ROAD BLOCK 16---
15. Confirming technical schedule
15. Massive working together
15. Running rehearsals

Don't even get me started on show time. And post-event accounting chaos. And I probably missed out shit loads.

Mum wasn't happy cause I barely saw her haha. Was working with the laptop almost all the time. She says if I put in the same kind of effort in my (non-existent) studies, I'd top the class. Cause I'm not exactly stupid. HAHA.

No but really, where do I get this drive?

The drive to put in the extra hour even if it's past 5 AM?
The drive to make me forget my tiredness?
The drive to make me want to get things done?
The drive to go all out and being uber resourceful?
The drive to be punctual?
The drive to find out more?
The drive to be proactive?
The drive to be inquisitive?
The drive to focus and listen?
The drive to deal with crap with a smile?

Guess you and I both have to stick around to find out!

Till then,
I'll be Paying It Forward! (Totally unrelated but you should too!) :)

Oops. Tried to link it but our website subscription is up. 

It's basically... like when someone does smth for you, you don't pay it back, but rather forward and to 3 different people. That way it spreads like wild fire oops I mean love. :D

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


Just walk away
It's simple
You've done it before
Now do it again
What was meant to be a summer fling
Turned into something more
But it's not right
Although it doesn't feel quite wrong

It has only been less than 2 hours
But it feels like days
Just walk away
After all you were the one who asked for it
How can it work
When we are miles and ages apart
How can it work
When there's not just one her waiting for him

You need to kill this feeling
That's churning inside of you
You have lots going for you
And you can't afford being pulled into this mess
Just walk away
Now before you delve deeper into sensual needing
Be strong
Before it gets harder

It's all just a state of mind
It shouldn't be too hard
Although it feels as though I'm weak
Because I know you won't be there
No longer to wake me in the morning
Nor the kiss to send me off
Just walk away
No one can know about us anyway

Just walk away.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Some things are greater than our impending exams.
Most things are greater than our selfish needs.

WARNING: A tad bit looooong. But it gets better from the video onwards; worth the read, I hope. Best impact when read after watching "The Lady" and the short clip. XD

After my first paper today, I thought I'd reward myself with a little treat -- I stopped at HMV to purchase one "The Lady", simply because Michelle Yeoh is my idol, my Malaysian pride; and I just had to watch her. (Don't even get me started on my dire attempts to find a working link online the day before, after being held emotionally hostage, having watched the first 10 minutes; put simply, I just had to finish the film.)

Ok, enough with my egocentric ranting.

I went looking for this movie because there was just something about a Michelle Yeoh movie, I simply have to watch. To be honest, I didn't know what I was expecting.

Anyway -- heartwarming, impassioned, powerful; the movie was. I'm a huge fan of Michelle Yeoh, and I must admit, I enjoy her movies, but not all her movies are SUPER fantastic (if quoted, I will deny). But this, was definitely something different. This, is by far one of her best portrayals yet. Like I mentioned earlier on, the first 10 minutes got me close to tears; if it weren't for the sudden interruption, I dare say, I would have cried buckets.

Well, through her performance, I saw the Aung San Suu Kyi that everyone was talking so reverently about. I must admit, I was apathetic to her pleas through the media; it did not strike my concern.

"The Lady" is the truest love story; the love story between man and wife, the love story between mother and children, the love story between a person and her motherland; all at once.

So what am I getting at? Yes, the story broke my heart; so what?

Well, after being so drawn to the story of Burma (or Myanmar as the juntas will demand), I found this.

DISCLAIMER: This was made by 3rd party, independent, film makers. I believe it to be a fair representation of Burma's current state. By Occam's razor, I shall also proceed to eliminate the possible media conspiracy theories.

My takeaway?

I have always been glad I was born in Malaysia, and no where else. (Ok, I have wished I was born in the States before.) But seeing the state of Burma (is like taking a quick glance of North Korea) has persuaded me to take a moment, to just be contented.

In light of the recent #BERSIH3.0 movement, I am not saying that we should all give up the fight for cleanER electoral reforms (cleanER because there will always be corruption, it is the degree of which we should concern), but just stop a moment, to give our government some credit. 

Then comes the more pressing issue, which would undeniably be the fight itself, not against the government, but against corruption. 

For Burma or Malaysia, one might ask. Quite jokingly. But quite frankly, there was a brief moment I considered Aung San Suu Kyi's plea to "use [our] liberty to promote [theirs]". But then I realised for starters, I know nothing about Burma, and more importantly, my very own land is not at peace. 

Watching the video above, I feel somewhat comforted that we're having it better. But surely that does not mean that we can allow it to deteriorate to that extent! Listening to a foreigner talk about how Burma's history was rewritten and seeing the revulsion through his eyes that I have long ignored, pretty much slapped me in the face. It may be hypocritical on his part, simply because no one has made a documentary about his country's revised history, but still -- how could I have been okay with this? (Again, I stress the reality; it is the extent, not the mere occurrence.)

Indubitably, I am not ready to give up my chase for the riches via economic slavery; but neither am I prepared to fall back into indifference, calling it a day, and letting the chips fall where they may, so long as I get my share.

What can we do?

I asked myself time and time again. I tell myself it is utterly useless, corruption is a weed, deeply rooted in our system. Why is there corruption? Is it all just one messed up cycle? Can we really do nothing? 

Then it struck me. With simplicity.

Corruption is present with the absence of integrity.

Which one of you have never bribed an officer? Perhaps you may not have had the chance to obtain a speeding ticket or a parking ticket because you do not drive. But take for instance, our parents. Or just think about it -- your aunties and uncles, *do not lie to yourselves* have they ever paid off a government servant in order to get or get away with something? These same people... do they complain about corruption?

Yes, there needs work with our Malaysian system as a whole. Civil servants should be paid more, refraining them from temptations to look for "external sources of income". 

But really, it starts with us.

One might think that it is only rational and economical to pay RM50 under the table compared to a RM500 saman in court because we do not have a choice. But we do. 

When will this end? Come once, come twice, hell you can even come knocking for the third time; but would you come for the tenth if you do not get what you want?

Sure, our problems are not as easy as mere duit kopi. But in our essays, we have once written, how we were the "generasi yang akan datang". Our generasi is now, as future leaders and entrepreneurs; it is our choice, perhaps, a long term investment for the long haul.

Of course, it takes time; but it can only end when everyone agrees it should. After all, it takes two hands to be at the giving and receiving end of corruption. But know this -- you have no right to talk about fairness if you are one of those people who have given in to such acts. 

Let us not talk about race, because that will bring in a whole new level of complexity. But let us start with a pivotal issue -- corruption. 

Again, I say, do not get me wrong, it will take time; it will not go away in a day, if it goes away at all; but it can be diminished to a state healthy for us all.

with integrity.
we will make a difference.