PG-999

WARNING: The following contents are packed with immense and epic-like theatrical threads and melodramatic motives. Parental guidance to monitor the profanities and swears thrust and condemned upon the writer is advised.

Two thousand candidates flooded Sunway’s Convention Hall that fine morning to sit for the ASEAN Pre-University Scholarships Selection Test. At that particular moment, a rush of inferiority accompanied by a pinch of insignificance engulfed me; I felt weak stuuupid.

Nonetheless, the sound of the test sheets being flipped is nothing but a chapter in my compilation of life experiences now. It was a good experience but the fact still remains that I didn’t perform very well.

The papers weren’t THAT difficult but… my essay, my gosh – what a let down. I’ve been writing very badly recently but that essay I wrote FOR THE ASEAN SCHOLARSHIPS SELECTION TEST, of all things, must have reached an all-time high, or rather – low. I wrote a stumbling 250 words. Where did all the words go?

And Math… Lack of practice. Hell, I didn’t even practise. Big mistake. I had the concepts for all the questions but I just didn’t have the time to solve the problems. I didn’t do 25% of the questions and that probably cost me my scholarship. It’s not that I am in dire need of the scholarship but not getting it when the doors were swung wide open for me would mean that I must be really stuuupid.

Well, like I said before, I didn’t manage to complete the questions as I took quite some time to work them solutions out… In fact, this doesn’t just apply to this selection test but also for all my tests and exams. Crap. I feel even more stuuupider now.

Geez… I could have done better. I know my ability. I could have gotten the scholarship. But I suppose “could have” just won’t do; “could have” will never bring me anywhere.

In any case, however, I shan’t talk about the ASEAN Scholarships anymore as I will only have to put up with more self-trashing if I were to go any further.

So, the tests are over and I suppose there is no reason for me to wait for Mr. Postman. Hopefully my General Ability Test was outstanding; only then, perhaps, I would still stand a chance to receive the Selection Interview call letter. I think I did pretty well. But then again, so did the other candidates… Sigh… I should start preparing an obituary for my possibility of receiving the ASEAN Scholarship and move on.

*Writes an obituary.*

*Moves on…*