Good news come in pretty little packages; Bad news / worries that follows come in bulk.

Tomorrow, I'll be awarded some scholarship.

People will be wondering how I got it.

I'm not the best.

Academically and athletically.

(Even socially, as in my service towards the community. Bleh!)

My studies suck.

I've been on task this term, better compared to the first two terms.

But I'm barely surviving, just when I thought everything was getting better.

Who knows what's going to happen for Promos.

I do not want to get retained.

My tennis suck.

I made the team.

But I'm not in the Top 7.

It'll prolly be the same next year cause there'll be really good players coming to RJ.

Which is good for the college, no doubts about that, but in a way, bad for me.

Bad Grades + Bad Tennis + No Community Involvement

= No Scholarship

Yes, this scholarship is subject to renewal and I've only been awarded for this academic year.

I haven't been performing.

How am I going to face people?

How am I going to face my friends?

How am I going to face my mum if I don't get it?

OMG.

How am I going to face Ms. Tan, the teacher who got me here?

I don't want her to think that all Malaysians are as incompetent as I am, because they are not.

Out of the basket, she just happened to pick one of the most rotten apple.

But we are all not that fruitless.

Some of us Malaccans play amazingly good in tennis.

Some of us Malaccans have remarkably good grades.

Not everyone's like me.

OMG.

How am I going to face myself in the mirror?

PS. I suppose the only "good" thing that's happened today is that after a lengthy and almost fiery discussion with a lady from SingTel Customer CARE, who's actually quite nice, I managed to waive off $43.02 for Mobile BroadBand Charges I didn't even use. T_T

PPS. Random: Sigh... Those were the days when I could afford to be laidback.