isolated...

Time really flies... It was just like yesterday when I was in Australia... Or PMR... Or LCC. Or Cambodia too. I dunno, this year… I met some one really nice and special. It’s a shame it all has to go down the drain. But all in all, I know I had lotsa fun and I am gonna miss Form 3. Well, life goes on...

Anywho... I have been going through lotsa stuff lately... And I’m in a mess. You know, it’s almost every holiday that I’ve got plenty of time to think. And I always come up with a bunch of crap. Of course I never really realize that until some one just knocks some sense into me. But I didn’t think it’ll be the same for this holiday break. I mean my life has been perfect, what more can I ask for? But it all just had to end some time soon.

I was waiting for the day when I arrive in Malacca again. Great to see my friends and everyone... But the day ended in a not so nice way. I lost something dear to me. I lost a friend. There’s a story behind it and only few would know. And I guess I would like to keep it that way...

Well, what doesn’t kill me only makes me stronger... right?

I don’t know about life anymore... I feel like I don’t know anything anymore. Whatever I say is wrong. I had plans ahead of me… But now I just don’t feel like going through with it anymore... Sometimes I just feel life’s a burden. I feel alone. I feel isolated. I really hope... I don’t know what to hope. I don’t know what I want... Not now. At least.

I very much do not know what am i talking about either... I just feel the need to talk to some one. Some one who cares. I know lotsa people care.

Wait. This is ironic. I just said i don't know anything. I'm just confused i guess... One thing i know is i'll definitely rise up again. You can hurt me once, you can hurt me twice. Heck, you can hurt me as much as you like. But i know that i will still be able to stand up after every fall.

"What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger".